Saturday, November 10, 2007

physics just saps my energy i don't know why

maybe i still haven't truly got over paper three

mediocrity

oh hell

surely you're made of sterner stuff?

i am, and i must prove it

Friday, November 9, 2007

last year i remember i was looking forward to christmas

oh well it's time to stop living in the past

When You Are Old


When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;
And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.




Thursday, November 8, 2007

hello world, it's been a while

been working on quite a fair bit for my lit (comparatively, of course). i realise i've lost the intuitive ability to understand those nuances; it's a funny thing, like how sometimes you get the answers to a problem and you don't know why yourself. i miss that old part of me; it's strange how you never treasure anything until it's lost


exams haven't been fantastic. but i might say it but i'll never contemplate giving up, not after all i've put in, not after how much i know i've improved. i think if you don't get what you're after even after all the effort you've put in then you've got to put up your hands and concede that it's not going to be yours. whatever happens in the future i'll take the path gladly, but i'll not lose sight of the final goal

and i realise i haven't been a very good friend to all those around me this year. i've been too caught up in my high-handed idealism, picking on little things without realising i'm equally flawed myself, clinging on to the past without treasuring all the good people around me. hmm if any of you happen to read this i'm sorry i love you guys

okay it's back to lit and rescuing my physics goodbye


PS: and to anyone who has been tolerating my rants of late thanks =)